Monday, September 29, 2008

I've Been Tagged!

Hooray!!! This is the first time this has happened to me. Allison tagged me to give seven random facts about me. So please stay to read my facts, then run over to Allison's blog and find out her random facts. One word...TBDBITL. Wait, is that a word?

Random Fact 1. I was a Girl Scout for 1st through 12th grade. I won the Gold Award, and worked two years at summer camp as a counselor.

Random Fact 2. I have a fledgling pastry and cookie business.

Random Fact 3. I love, love, love chocolate peanut butter ice cream.

Random Fact 4. I am addicted to Spearmint Tic Tacs and they are nearly impossible to find in stores. I'm seriously considering buying them in bulk online.

Random Fact 5. I really enjoy reading cookbooks.

Random Fact 6. I have a mixed husband is a Republican and I am a Democrat. Sometimes I get so angry at his views that I want to throw something at him.

Random Fact 7. I worry incessantly about everything.

So, there you go! 7 random facts.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

A Bushel and a Peck

It's apple-picking time! Oh, how I loooooove picking apples!! This weekend my mom and I will take our annual trip to Legend Hills Orchard in Utica. This year is really special, because it is the first time we are taking my niece, Palmer, who is 2. We've taken my other nieces and nephew from the time they were her age. It's a really great day.

After picking, we always go to Ye Olde Mill for lunch and ice cream. Ye Olde Mill is the home of Velvet Ice Cream, which is really good. You've had it if you've ever eaten a dessert with ice cream at Bob Evans restaurants.

The best part of the day is the smell of the car on the way home. Yummy!!!

And for those of you who are curious, a peck is equal to 8 quarts or 16 pints. 4 pecks equal 1 bushel. And that is your lesson for the day.

Happy Apple Picking!!!

Friday, September 12, 2008

Wishin' and hopin’ and thinkin’ and prayin’

For two years now, David and I have been actively trying to get pregnant. I knew we would have trouble, because I was diagnosed with PCOS four years ago. I knew the issues and the odds, and that we would need help. But honestly, I really thought that once we started down the road of fertility treatments, we would have success.

I was wrong.

While we are really just at the beginning of treatments available to us, I know that as we cross a method off the list, the odds of us conceiving become lower. It's so incredibly frustrating. I see people bounce into each other sideways who end up pregnant. I see people who probably, for all intents and purposes, should not have children, yet they have no issues in that department whatsoever.

I think the hardest thing is watching cases of abused children...children that were born into such horrific circumstances that you just know the chances of them growing up unscathed are slim. What I wouldn't give to hold and cuddle and cherish a child, and there are people out there that throw them away like trash. It just hurts so much.

I haven't written about our struggles with this before, and I'm not sure I will going forward. But I needed to put this down, because things aren't going well, and it is very hard emotionally. I see little ones and I yearn to be a mother. And while I would never begrudge someone's wonderful news, I must admit that sometimes the pain and frustration is overwhelming when someone announces a pregnancy. I don't want to be the person that lists our issues as a kind of scorecard, because that just highlights my failures.

But I do want to ask for your prayers and/or good thoughts.